Customary sentimental new year post is here. Say hello. It'll come only once every year.

I know how this is so cliché because everybody does it, but I have what I want to say, to say. Deal with it.

I don't know how it seems like this happens every year, but time just... flies. It really does. I don't know where to start because there are so many things to say, and so much happened. Failed friendships, disappointments, setbacks, stress, and friendships that stay on, stronger than ever.

There were so many disappointments this year, I think I lost track. The times when I worked so hard, but I just didn't get it, the times when people disappoint me, the times when I disappoint myself. Honestly, disappointments suck. It's nauseating, repulsive, irking, and just makes you want to kill yourself. But these times are the times that I realise, God never disappoints.

There was so much stress this year that was carried over from the ugly stain of my PSLE results. Trying to please people is just so tiring. Whether it is my parents, myself, or my friends, it is exhausting. The whole concept called "future" just scares me and makes me want to run. From what, I don't know. But the joy of the Lord is my strength, and he is my assurance.

Hurt was so apparent this year, too. My friends (even the closest ones), my parents, everybody.

Yet there are so many happy things that occured, and so many people and friendships I am so thankful for. I love you, all my best/good friends (you know who you are) so, so much, okay? You guys are my personal miracles.

And just like that, the new year starts.